Face to Face with Life

i dunno why whenever i try writin somethin close to my heart here...
i end up with errors..
senseless errors..
when i desperately need to write all i get is a list of errors why my post cannot b published..

pathetic...!
seems GOD doesnt want me to write it all here..
share it n feel better...

how mean...

Chaitra

not this one.. my wordpress blog...
click here to visit it..
i hope i am not annoying...u all....
tc
Chaitra

i dunno why but today i want to write something i have already written on my other blog..
i have been coping up with life...n tryin to adjust since saturday.. but this life uffffff ..its too mean..
so instead of copy pastin it.. i am writin the link..
click on it n c what i want to say...what i am goin thru..
heres the link...
http://chaitra.wordpress.com
this was my first blog....i was having some technical problems...so shifted here..
but now its workin again...n i love that blog of mine...
m kinda attatched to it... like my first LOVE...
hehehehehe
bbye
n take care
Chaitra

....
everythings fine but i am sad...
everythings fine but i am lonely...
everythings fine n i am torn....

m listenin to this song rite now...
n i swear i can feel this...all...
the song...""frens are frens forever"" by Micheal W. Smith

"Packing up the dreams God planted
In the fertile soil of you
I can't believe the hopes He's granted
Means a chapter of your life is through

But we'll keep you close as always
It won't even seem you've gone
'Cause our hearts in big and small ways
Will keep the love that keeps us strong

And friends are friends forever
If the Lord's the Lord of them
And a friend will not say never
'Cause the welcome will not end
Though it's hard to let you go
In the Father's hands we know
That a lifetime's not too long
To live as friends

And with the faith and love God's given
Springing from the hope we know
We will pray the joy you live in
Is the strength that now you show

We'll keep you close as always
It won't even seem you've gone
'Cause our hearts in big and small ways
Will keep the love that keeps us strong

And friends are friends forever
If the Lord's the Lord of them
And a friend will not say never
'Cause the welcome will not end
Though it's hard to let you go
In the Father's hands we know
That a lifetime's not too long
To live as friends

And friends are friends forever
If the Lord's the Lord of them
And a friend will not say never
'Cause the welcome will not end
Though it's hard to let you go
In the Father's hands we know
That a lifetime's not too long
To live as friends

To live as friends

Though it's hard to let you go
In the Father's hands we know
That a lifetime's not too long
To live as friends

No a lifetime's not too long
To live as friends""

i know my blog isn't makin ne sense today...
i am out of my senses to know...what i am reading , writing n trying to say...will better go n sleep...

good nite..
n sweet dreams...
Chaitra...

phew!! so finally i have landed in haridwar...
some 900 kms away from home(BhopAL) to another home(Haridwar) of mine..
my father has been living and working here since last two years..
n though i visited him rarely but enjoy my visits a lot..
n here i AM ON MY LAST VISIT to this HOLY CITY..
(coz dad's shiftin bak..his work here is over)..
he will b home finally with all of us.. we will b all together once again..
neways bfore this homecoming happens...i am here to visit some of the most b'ful cities n religious places of our country..
my journey will start from HARIDWAR TOWARDS BADRINATH on tuesday..
then will ascend to GANGOTRI...(THE BIRTH PLACE OF GANGA)
after that will start descending to MUSSOURIE,DEHRADOON n then RISHIKESH...
n finally to HARIDWAR...on the banks of the b'ful river GANGA..
though the city(HARIDWAR) is too dirty n congested (courtesy the tourists n devotees..dirty ppl)
but still GANGES maintains her royality..
SHE's still magnificent n flows with all her vigour.
n this is the perfect time to have a glimpse of our country's most famous river...
i mean the rainy season when the dams are opened n the river flows in 3 streams at Harki Paidi..
one stream is the main river which flows with all its strength...just out from the dam...
the other one is diverted channel for the devotees...to have bath...in a less powerful GANGES...
i mean it has been diverted in a large stream with a very slow speed to provide safety to the bathing
devotees...
n the third one is for draining industrial wastes...huh!! so finally logo ko kuch akkal aai..
atleast they have started thinkin abt a cleaner GANGES...someday or the other the plan will work out properly...n we will have a cleaner HOLY RIVER...n a cleaner HOLY CITY..
but for now...GANGES N THE VALLEY is b'ful as we move up...its even much more cleaner at Rishikesh..
so i am dyin to see the beauty of our ANCIENT river in its birthplace...n in the way towards the EARTH..
i am hopin to have a wondeful trip...
m too excited abt the 14 hours drive up in the valley...eeeeeeeee....
n i just cant wait to click pictures..
will keep in touch n will keep updating....atleast i will try..

u all take care..
n mail me..what all u want to convey to GOD...
i mean demands and all..
will forward ur messages...
now i will leave m too tired.
n sleepy..
bbye
Chaitra

found this...was sent to me by a fren..
its seemed all so true.. i felt like it was made for me..
i mean given a chance i wud have written the same words... coz its the condition of my heart.. rite now..
i m feelin it all.
n today i talked to my some very old frens.. frens from my time in DELHI... i wasnt in touch with them for say last 8 yrs...n suddenly i found them on ORKUT... really ORKUT ki jai ho... i cant tell u ppl how happy n satisfied i am...to have found them.. its always good to b with old frens...
n as the message in the above picture says.."some ppl always live with u...infact they live inside u..forever"
its a lovely feeling..i am just unable to come down to earth.. but some gurgles say i am on earth ...oh thats my stomach...dinner time...
do take care
have a wonderful dinner n GOOD nite
Chaitra

hey...
i shud sing...
"HAPPY ANNIVERSARY" today for my future inlaws...its their 24th Wedding Anniversary but cudnt somehow.. they have gone to SHIRDI to celebrate the day..i tried to wish them..but again cudnt..as usual..nobody is intersted in bein wished by me.. sub mujhe bhool gaye... i am out of the party too..

hence today was so boring..it just passed by. i didnt even realise din kaha chala gaya...kept snoring without sleepin ...
shaam ko went out with ma n bought a pair of shoes..
(acche se choona lagaya hehehhe ) ate panipuri, jalebi n kesar kulfi.. n lots more...yummy..
but still the day was like a wind... whooooooosh n its already 9:50....n i will goto bed in an hour n sleep till 10 tomorrow..nooooooooooooooo not 10 kal to i have an lr test.
waise i dont have to study for that...LR ..
neway so my overall day was like the picture...
i mean i had the similar expression ...n the day passed by...behind my chair.

u all take care
n hold on to ur days..
mine is up..
good nite
sweet dreams
n tc
Chaitra

yesterday i was at home the whole day... ..n i got too bored...n the icing to add up to my mood was a cancelled date with SURAJ...i was supposed to go out with him for LUNCH.. .but cudnt somehow..
but who cares..i went out today....
had a great lunch...some nice flowers n a b'ful coffe mug...

so this is the mug.. i loved it, n the perfect timing too...n the best part was the surprise...i wasnt expecting all this today..neways loved it all...
the coffee mug..has a note written on its inside...
heres the pic

its a long list of THANK YOU'S for whatever i did for him... CHO CHWEET.....i dunno how m i even goin to pour hot cofee into this..i will never do that...never...

all i cud say was THANK U...N he said ITS MY TURN TO SAY THANK YOU..
heheheeh...n all i cud ask was...itna saara thank u ladaai karne ke liye?? (coz i fight a lot with him..) n all he did was GRIN..n i know what that means...

but at the end of the day all this makes me sad..coz very soon we will b leavin our homes...(i will b out for my masters n he will join WIPRO(NOIDA)...
all we can do then will b talkin on the phone n seein each other once in few months
i wish i cud do something abt it...nothing can b done.. TO MEET N TO PART IS THE WAY OF LIFE..N TOO PART N TO MEET IS THE ESSENCE OF LIFE.....n its the essence that i love more...heheh
will pray.. for these 3 yrs to pass away...as soon as possible...
but i will miss HIM...
LOVE U LOTS SURAJ...infact TONNES...

this shud have been my personal post...but i wanted u all to know..that i have a lovely boyfren..i love him a loooooooooot...n consider myself blessed to have him...
hehehehe
tc
Chaitra

FOUND THIS WHILE GOIN THRU UNICEF'S SITE.. its a report..n i hope UNICEF ppl won't mind my putting this here.. if they mind... pls come n see me in the jail...(if thats where they put the ppl who violate copyrights.)

The children of Iraq are caught up in war for the third time in 20 years. UNICEF is deeply concerned by the further deteriorating conditions brought on by this war and their impact on children of Iraq. Almost half of the population is under the age of 18. Even before the most recent conflict began, many children were highly vulnerable to disease and malnutrition. One in four children under five years of age is chronically malnourished. One in eight children die before their fifth birthday.

The recent war and its effect on children have to be seen in the broader context of Iraq's situation, which is unique in many ways. An eight-year war with Iran in the 1980s and the Gulf War in 1991 greatly damaged Iraq's infrastructure. The country has been under comprehensive United Nations sanctions for 12 years since the Gulf War.

To reduce the humanitarian impact of the sanctions, the Oil for Food Programme (OFFP) was introduced in 1996, which allowed the Iraqi government to sell oil and use the revenue to purchase humanitarian supplies. The programme helped arrest further deterioration in the humanitarian situation but did not greatly improve conditions for most Iraqis, because of revenue shortfalls and structural problems inherent in the programme. Thus, the basic services infrastructure of Iraq on the eve of this war remained in a deplorable state.

In the months leading up to the war in mid-March 2003, UNICEF pre-positioned over $14 million in emergency supplies and equipment in and around Iraq, and established logistics hubs along the border with neighbouring countries, which allowed for quick trans-border deliveries of relief supplies into Iraq once the war broke out.

So may b its time we stop the wars...how long will these NGO's strive on their own..
kids are so unsafe now... sometimes i feel that GOD shud take bak all the children from the earth n keep them safe in heaven...

ummmmmmmm yummy....
i love chocolates...n today the whole day passed by in just craving for them.. somehow cudnt go out...n get one myself...
n these pictures are adding up to my sorrows n my pains... he bhagwaan.....
oh GOD... i wish maine aaj NIDHI ka wait nai kiya hota..baahar jane ke liye...
mera chocolate CAKE...
mummy....
tomorrow the first thing i am goona do in the morning is...rush to bakery......
heheheheh...hopin to dream abt the CHOCOLATE CAKE the whole nite...
bbye...
n good nite.. CHOCOLATE DREAMS..
take care..
Chaitra